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Monday, March 18, 2013

Entry 64: Dude, I can't find my big girl panties

It's been a rough week (month, year, life)  and I haven't been in the mood to post - nothin' nice to say blah, blah, blah. And although I was hoping to muster the energy to make my way to the studio to work on two paintings I was initially excited to start, my schedule has been a little full - I've been very, very busy being depressed and overwhelmed watching my world avalanche in on itself.

Normally, my prescription for everything is "go paint!" but not this time - for reasons waaaay beyond my control, I'm stuck in a nightmarish holding pattern and I just can't muster enough energy to even pretend I can 'fake it till you make it'. So we've got two large-ish scale paintings hanging in my studio that're only partially done and me sitting here just staring at the computer screen.
Right now - my mojo is gone, my big girl panties are missing and I've got some very scary fish to fry.

I do have pics of last week's half assed attempts at painting though.

the messes I leave behind:


Ugh....Pepe has glaucoma.
Will do surgery if/when things decide to straighten out.

Hmmmm - kinda looks the way I feel....
shock, awe, and with a hint of
"dude, no way that just happened".

" the......?"

"Nope, no way. Can't be real"
"Maaannn, that's imposseeble. Absowutewy imposeeeble".

Double ugh.


  1. I am sorry that it is horribly hard right now. Your art is incredible.

  2. Yeh, it's been a tough year but thank you for the feedback!